Time for an Update

Well, I haven't really felt like writing anything lately because not much has been going on. Yesterday, I organized all of my photos on my computer because I don't want them to be in a tangled mess twenty years from now. It's best to keep things labeled and organized as we go along. I realized that I have kept a better record of Alan's birthdays than our birthdays, lol.

So from now on, I'm going to make sure that I record what we did and take a few more pictures. On my 23rd birthday this year, April 12th, we went to Leonardo's Pizzeria, where Scott used to work, and we saw The Vow, an extremely good chick flick. Scott gave me a dozen roses, a romantic card, and a gift card for a nook book from Barnes and Noble. Also, Rachel bought me some really pretty, pink flowers. Even though I'm really not getting that much older, my mind is still thinking that I'm 21 or 22. Next year, I'll be 24! Weird :).

Baby is coming along. The due date keeps getting switched on us though, which has been a bit frustrating. Last week, we went in for our first doctor's appointment, and she said that I was eleven weeks instead of thirteen. I guess the secretary who sent me the letter made a typo. That news hit me a bit harder than the doctor seemed to understand. It's really only 10 days difference, but for me it meant so much more than that to get past the first trimester after having had a miscarriage. I've been going through one long first trimester between getting to eleven weeks before, miscarrying on Dec. 5th, and now doing the whole process all over again. So yeah, my hormones are a little whacked. To know that our baby is going to be okay is so important to us. On a better note, we got to hear the heartbeat, which was so exciting. It sounded so strong and clear, and it was really freaky to hear a heartbeat from my abdomen. It's also kind of cool to see the beginnings of a little bump forming. I'm really excited for the baby to grow more, as funny as that may sound, because I will get to feel more physically the vigorous life kicking around down there. My due date is now October 29th, and I'm 12 weeks along. I'm hoping for a November baby because I'm not sure about Halloween birthdays.

We have a lot to be grateful for in our lives. We've earned college degrees without accruing hardly any debt. We have a great marriage, and we have a baby on the way. Even though the miscarriage was very hard on us, I'm grateful for the fact that we are able to conceive quickly. Despite all that we have to be grateful for, since December, the last few months have been the most challenging of our marriage. This isn't meant to be a dramatic statement, but it's true. I think it's mainly due to the face of the compounding of many things at once (miscarriage, not getting into master's programs, trying to find employment, living with our parents and not having our own home (as much as we love them), depression/hormone issues etc.). I think the last time I went through this much was when my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. It has been the first real trial period of our marriage, but it has definitely made us stronger. We have learned a lot from these experiences. But things look like they are going to turn around for us very soon, so keep your fingers crossed.

Love to all,


Clarissa